Dark Night of the Soul

Shaken by the
deviation from plans
shifting the ground I stand on
tearing open a rift

I fall into a black hole
Attempt to grasp the colors
that will bring me back into the world I love 
but it slips between my fingers

Sense of reality shattered
Futile to glue back together
the shards of countless pieces

I’m lost in this dark place
So I rebuild myself
Fashion a new identity
that propels me back outside

Time has passed
I’ve walked around
and lived in this new skin
As I’m listening to a new friend 
he says trigger phrase
which breaks the dam

A river of tears flow from within
Reminiscing the loss of my former state
Hanging on for dear life
Friend becomes the life jacket
Keeping me buoyant
Rooted in the present

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  1. V.J. Knutson says:

    Life tends to cause deviations from plans – you have described so well the feeling – the loss, the grief, the sudden instability. Thanks for participating.

    1. theresaly520 says:

      I originally was going to write about psychologist Steven Pinker’s ideas of deviation from homogeneity from his book The Blank Slate and comment on Veronica Roth’s Divergent trilogy. Maybe I’ll explore more in a different post, but I appreciate the fascinating topic! 🙂

  2. Joey Blue says:

    Wow what a great poem, Sa! Especially for someone new to poetry!!

    1. theresaly520 says:

      Thanks! 🙂 I whipped it up as you encouraged me to think about it some more. I guess it’s easier to write poems when they’re from your heart and experiences. I love how metaphors help me express it more clearly. Always learning though.

      1. Joey Blue says:

        Wow well I am honored I could be a part of it. I often get stuck between writing from my heart and just writing whatever is fun.

        1. theresaly520 says:

          I guess you could always do both! 🙂 I get stuck between writing about academic concepts, from my heart, or fun as well. I wonder if I need separate blogs for separate topics, but I’m experimenting with that!

    1. theresaly520 says:

      Golly, I’m humbled! Thank you for sharing! 🙂

  3. This is an awesome poem Sa! It’s so powerful and shows just how much we need a support system to pull us through the tough times. 🙂 ❤️

    1. theresaly520 says:

      Thank you, Jenna! ❤ Joey Blue encouraged me to write a poem about these sort of people in our lives, the special individuals we can instinctively open up to. I'm glad I did. 🙂

      1. I’m glad you did too, it’s very moving and powerful. ❤️😊

  4. Such a powerful poem. Thank you! 🙂

    1. theresaly520 says:

      Thank you for stopping by! I think you’re blog is beautiful by the way. It seems to make me float in a beautiful space! 🙂 ❤

      1. Wow! You are so sweet and kind. Feel blessed to connect. 🙂

  5. Jules says:

    Throughout life, it seems we reinvent ourselves. Child, student, worker, spouse, parent,… grandparent. Evolution is not always easy, but I would rather move forward than back.
    It is good to have supportive friends. 🙂
    We need all the life-jackets we can get 😉

    1. theresaly520 says:

      Thank you! Well said Jules! 🙂

  6. Lwbut says:

    Very nicely done! 🙂

    I’m sure that people suffering depression and a range of other issues could identify intimately to it also.

    Expressing our inner emotions is a key to living with them in a more effective fashion.

    Listened to Steve Pinker’s TED talk. Kinda tilts the Nature/Nurture argument heavily to nature?

    Have you read the Douglas Adams novel, The Long Dark Tea-Time of the Soul?? 🙂

    1. theresaly520 says:

      Thanks! “Expressing our inner emotions is key to living with them in a more effective fashion.” I guess that is a reason why I enjoy journaling! 🙂

      Hm…didn’t Douglas Adams write “Hitchhiker’s Guide to the Galaxy” 🙂

      Yes, I can understand Steve Pinker’s bias considering his background. Don’t think I agree with everything he says though.

  7. Lwbut says:

    And i for one enjoy your journalling too! ( and even my own sometimes. 😉 )

    Spot on! – Mr Adams did write the 5 part HHGG ‘trilogy’. I loved it. He also wrote the Dirk Gently books about a ‘holistic’ private detective who believes that everything is connected (Holism) and so he could solve a mystery ( such as a missing cat) while sitting in a pub and having a quiet drink! ( Nice work if you can get it!)

    The series is even weirder than the HHGG even though it is mostly set in late 20th century London. 🙂

    1. theresaly520 says:

      5 part trilogy?? That’s new news for me! Hmmm…. I will see if I can find Dirk! I’ve enjoyed British fiction and television.

      A friend once told me, after observing me, that she thought I was more holistic than dichotomistic and introduced me to the concept of systems thinking. When I studied more about it, I thought it was fascinating that most Americans think dichotomistically due to their individualistic nature and lean towards linear logic…..which would explain why this guy I once dated said I wasn’t logical enough for him… 🙂

      I wonder if how my parents raised me affected how I think about stuff, non western mindset??

      Boy what a segway! I will have fun this weekend! 🙂

  8. This one paints the pain so well!!
    I am glad the protagonist has a good friend! 🙂
    Lovely take on the prompt! 🙂

    1. theresaly520 says:

      Thanks! I had no idea that the “dark” prompt was going to take me here! 🙂

  9. Hahaha..darkness takes you places! 😉

    1. theresaly520 says:

      No kidding! If Joseph Conrad could write a whole book about the Heart of Darkness, there’s no telling where else it could take you. I’ve been thinking about writing a thriller that takes place in the “dark web”, but I don’t know too much about it! 😀

      1. It is a dangerous place!
        I can only tell you, be extremely cautious!

        1. theresaly520 says:

          It was just an idea that’ll remain an idea. I can only write about what I know well which is the warmth of the holidays currently. 🙂

          Speaking of which! I gave you a virtual white elephant gift for the holidays: https://theresaly520.wordpress.com/2018/12/07/white-elephant-3/

          1. Yes…spreading the warmth is a good idea!! 🙂

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